Waking up with someone next to you

is sooo overrated. Last night I occupied my time by doing what most 21 year olds would do on a best friends 21st (see I told you I have about 30 of them, so that term gets thrown around). I drank, and somehow found myself walking home with a dude. A dude. So the question is why? I knew I wasn't going to get any sexual pleasure from him because 1. I have never came from a guy. 2. I hasn't shaved in a really long time (which is a completely different issue, girls and pubes) and 3. I was on my period. So I wasn't looking for sexual pleasure, I just wanted someone, anyone. I throw relationships around like they are old papers, I think of myself as ubber independent and not in need of a man for anything. But last night, I wanted one, I just wanted one around. I kinda know the reason why, I had just watched the Guys and Dolls documentary that has been all over the feminist sites. Guys being with Dolls because it is to hard to be in a relationship so they choose the doll instead and I thought, damn thats me. Its not that I hump a doll, but I am just as scared of relationships as those fellas are. I know the documentary was suppose to get me all pissed off about how wrong and misogenistic the world is, but really the film made me realize that I cant hide from people, relationships, love. So waking up with someone enxt to you is kinda awkward (well I just started laughing this morning when I woke up) and I agree it is overrated and far to many girls are just looking for a warm body to make them feel better about themselves, waking up with some guy next to you means that you can build relationships with people, if only for a night.